At what point did life just take a horrible turn?
#1
Posted 09 November 2010 - 03:00 AM
Ya know what sucks about everything even more? Not one person will try and lighten up your mood about the future and instead they say things get worse. Thank you good to know I have a lot to look forward to. People just overall as you get older end up trying to kill all motivation and optimism you have which is why everything gets worse since you stop trying.
All in all I guess what I should say is **** those people and don't lose your motivation.
#2
Posted 09 November 2010 - 04:39 AM
Edited by Blizzard, 09 November 2010 - 04:40 AM.
#3
Posted 09 November 2010 - 06:45 AM
I often find myself wondering the same thing. I think I've figured it out though. First off being my mom getting ill and slowly losing her ability to walk and do normal daily activities, it’s been really hard to deal with it because all of my life she was always so active and physical that seeing her lose that just really depressed me. Of course due to this I felt the need to help out as much as I can and the stress of keeping the family together and you know, playing a much bigger role in my family than I was used to etc. at first really got to me, to the point of me completely withdrawing from all of my friends and pretty much losing my mind for a good chunk of last year. Add the big break up I had with my ex-gf, my tendency to procrastinate and my insomnia, and well, yea, that doesn’t help anything. Things this year though have slowly been getting better for me. Early in the year I started seeing friends more and have gotten better at not procrastinating, but I dunno, things just haven’t been the same. I’ve tired countless times to get a real job and nothing has worked out for me. I lack the motivation to keep trying even though I have all of the things that should motivate me, like, I should be motivated to make my life better right? I mean don’t get me wrong, I do get motivated, but it only lasts for like a week or two and then when things don’t pane out, I lose it all. I want to move forward, but from failing so many times I’ve kind of accepted where I am I guess and sometimes don’t even see the point in trying anymore.
… But I must say, I feel like all of this has actually brought me closer to my true self. I’ve taken up the hobby of writing (plain writing and poetry) to help express myself and my emotions etc. and it really helps get things out that I before would have just bottled up inside me. Now I can even express myself better in actual conversations too because of it. So if one good thing has come out of all of this, I guess it would be that I feel more complete. I feel more like myself than I ever have.
Buy yea… I agree, **** those people. I know exactly the kind of person you’re talking about. The thing is, they’re most likely that way because somebody was that way with them, so it’s like a never ending cycle. What we need is encouragement, but sadly so many people are too focused on their self and simply don’t want to see others succeed because they don’t want anybody to have something they don’t have. If we could all just put away our selfish pride and help each other everyone would be so much better off… Yea, I kinda sound like a show aimed at preschoolers, but it’s true.
#4
Posted 09 November 2010 - 08:35 AM
all i can say is even though theres tons of negative assholes out there, shit will indeed get better DTM.. tomorrow can bring anything.. there's no telling what will happen.. and if its bad for you now it can really only get better.. right?
#5
Posted 09 November 2010 - 11:10 AM
u mad?
#6
Posted 09 November 2010 - 11:33 AM
EDIT: At least people put out.
Edited by Shyseven, 09 November 2010 - 11:33 AM.
#7
Posted 09 November 2010 - 12:05 PM
#8
Posted 09 November 2010 - 02:43 PM
#9
Posted 09 November 2010 - 07:29 PM
JB, on 09 November 2010 - 06:45 AM, said:
Guess instead of helping future generations they rather just have them go through the same thing.
Simon, on 09 November 2010 - 11:10 AM, said:
u mad?
Cool story, bro. Naw really its awesome nice to see good things happen to awesome people.
Shyseven, on 09 November 2010 - 11:33 AM, said:
EDIT: At least people put out.
They do mostly but I won't say everyone does nor do I think its a good idea to isolate yourself. Just have to look for the people who stay even after your bad moments which is difficult.
Alan93, on 09 November 2010 - 12:05 PM, said:
Sweet. Same with Simon its cool to see.
The Icon, on 09 November 2010 - 02:43 PM, said:
This is where the sucky part comes in, I refuse to become selfish and only think about myself but it would be nice if after you help someone out you get the same in return.
#10
Posted 09 November 2010 - 07:45 PM
Alan93, on 09 November 2010 - 12:05 PM, said:
#11
Posted 10 November 2010 - 07:36 PM
#12
Posted 10 November 2010 - 08:05 PM
Where did all of you depressing folk come from? You're acting like me. Of course comparing my life to JB's is actually pretty easier. But what you said about being like a bitter old man who gets annoyed by the tiniest things, Dan; I can compare.
Dealing with stuff such as going through the same shit but a different day is now a normal thing to me. My sense of humor was to laugh at most things, now it's dry-er than Jimmy Carr's stand up.
I actually went to see a therapist about it, he summarized me after I spoke about all the shit I've been through such as appetite problems and my alopecia (hair loss), the bipolar or manic depressive characteristics that I developed over being rejected and alone in my own sorrow. He just said I was going through a mid-life-crisis at the age of 17 and that I'm too mature for my age.
Now if you can compare with that, it isn't all that bad. We are still young and tomorrow is another day to cherish.
#13
Posted 11 November 2010 - 05:25 PM
I suppose my life took a poor turn when school ended and there wasn't anything to do in the real world. Or, I would rather say that there are a ton of things to do but I haven't been able to figure out what they are yet.
Also. That bad trip was probably a defining moment for me.
#14
Posted 11 November 2010 - 06:43 PM
It got even worse when I found out he only got eight years, and only did four of those. They called it self defense. He stabbed my dad 29 times and slit his throat. Dad didn't even have a weapon. Where's the goddamned defense?
I saw his name and picture in the newspaper a month ago; he was being quoted about his brother, who had just been found Guilty, on a murder charge. He said his brother could never do something like that. When I saw that, I truly believed I could strangle the life out of that man. I wanted to feel him stop breathing, to watch the life fade from his eyes; I wanted him to suffer.
That's when my life took a horrible turn.
#15
Posted 11 November 2010 - 07:13 PM
#16
Posted 11 November 2010 - 07:48 PM
#17
Posted 11 November 2010 - 08:03 PM
#18
Posted 16 November 2010 - 04:48 PM
#20
Posted 17 November 2010 - 01:49 AM
#22
Posted 17 November 2010 - 11:11 AM
One of my all time favourite quotes in history from a brilliant man.
#23
Posted 21 November 2010 - 04:37 PM
#24
Posted 30 November 2010 - 04:43 PM
Forget forgivin' and just accept that that's it',
See that's how it's gotta be.
Then you can fall in love, get on with your life and be free"
Lyrics probably very relevant to how this thread's emotional depth, avatar definitely related.
#25
Posted 01 December 2010 - 08:34 PM